The beauty of a moment

I know I'm not the most eloquent person, but I had to share something I wrote the other night while trying to capture a perfect moment...


Sometimes in life, you you're going along: you stop, and looks around... and realize:
Life isn't perfect, it never will be, but it's perfect enough. Life may be a jumbled up jigsaw puzzle, but the pieces are starting to come together, and it's a beautiful picture. And even though in life you may still have lots to do, plenty of work to be done and countless things you can improve... It's all good, the world is right, and life is spectacular, incredible, fantastic, magical... Beautiful.

Changeling ways...

So, as we all know, I tend to have this habit of getting bored with life. Whenever this happens my "changeling ways" kick in and I end up making random changes in my life. Sometimes they're small, like my hair color or buying lots of dresses; other times they can be kinda huge, like I move across the country. I like my hair color, though, and I'm working on growing it out, so changes to my hair isn't an option right now, and I like life in Florida WAY too much to leave here. It's the new year, which is a time for changes anyway, and I have been slowly going mad the last few months since I got bored with life and haven't had much of any ideas of what to change, but then, I was sitting here, looking at my fairly naked apartment (which is getting a furniture face life in about a month) and I had a brilliant idea! Wall Vinyls! See, I have this wall, and it's kinda a strange shape, so I don't want to make it an accent wall, but it would perfectly frame a quote. So then I went looking. I have a painting on my wall, "The Singing Butler" :

I love it, it is beautiful. Fairly obvi, it's a couple dancing in the rain, so I thought to myself, "Self, what if you found a quote about dancing to go over on that wall and you could kinda tie in the two?" That's when I found VinylCraze(dot)com, and guess what I found there? You guessed right! Vinyl Wall Quotes! but more specifically, I found one that says:

 "Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to Dance in the Rain."

. RIGHT?! So I'm gonna get it in dark red! and I'm gonna paint the half wall where I'm putting my reading chair as an accent wall the same color. YAY for changes!

Happy

I don't know what the cause is, and I'm sure it's a self-perpetuating cycle, but I've been really happy lately. Singing to myself more, dancing around the house, and laughing at silly things more. I'm really excited to be going to Florida on the permanent, or maybe it's #12. Maybe it's the ridiculous dogs I spend my time with, they ARE fairly amusing. Maybe it's all the sun I've been getting lately (yay vitamin D!). Whatever the reason, I'm very Happy. That is all.

Good Things

So... I've been a little bummed out, because #12 is amazing. And kinda perfect. Which makes me wish that I could have a real chance at a relationship with him, rather than starting to date him just in time to leave. Great Things about #12:

• He is an incredible dancer
• He has a real grown-up job (high school teacher)
• He seems to be happy with said grown-up job
• He feels bad for the short notice when cancelling a date 24 hours in advance
• He's a total romantic
• He does NOT like PDA
• He's smart
• He's tall
• He is all muscly and sexy and stuff
• His bachelors degree was in Percussion Performance (read: he's a musician)
• He can sing
• Perhaps most importantly: He compliments me a lot!

I'm not setting any rules about this. I've made that mistake before. Instead, I'm simply going to see what happens, and enjoy the ride. Who knows what will happen. And, if nothing else, he's helping me get over #5, which is a REALLY good thing.

Internship

I didn't get a Disney Professional Internship... sadness.


But instead I got a full time job... YAY!

I'm in trouble

It's a really good thing that I'm moving to Florida in a week, but it's a bad thing too. I found a really really great guy. And I'm smitten. Like, REALLY smitten. #12 has been talking to me more and more the last few weeks at the saturday night dances, and then this past week I told him that it was probably going to be my last weekend dancing in Houston, since I'm leaving soon and have a WHOLE LOT of stuff to get done before then. At which point he looked really sad, and later asked if I'd like to go get Starbucks after dancing, since it would probably be my last week. PSSH! YEAH!!! It was a really good night of dancing, he's a really good dancer and he asked me to dance a few times, plus some of my other fav leads were there. So we left Te early and I followed him to Starbucks, which was really busy. While waiting in line he told me that my face sparkles when I smile, and that I have an infectious laugh, and he'd wanted to ask me out for the last two weeks, but had assumed I had a boyfriend. Really guys? Never assume that, cause if she has a boyfriend, she'll be flattered that you asked, you'll make her day, and she'll tell you. Once we had our drinks, we decided to go for a drive where he showed me the place where there's Blues Dancing on thursday nights and showed me Rice University (where he got his Master's degree), all the while talking music. Good music at that, Andrews Sisters, Sinatra, Sammy, as well as Buble, Connick, McKelle and Gardot. We got out to walk around a park, and he sang "You've got what it takes" and "Your Song" to me, then kissed me. Apparently I have addictive kisses and "Lips like Rose Petals." Just the thought of him makes me smile. I'm in trouble. He's as muscled as #5 and a good 6 inches taller. And have I mentioned his mad dance skills? How bout that he teaches High School? Yeah, I'm in trouble, a tall muscled dancer with a grown up job and a great voice. le sigh. And now I have to leave in a week. Get to leave, I mean, I'm going to have my own place, no roommates, no family, just me. That makes me happy. Really Happy.


In general, I'm really Happy right now. Capital H and all.


I went over to his place on Monday evening, we watched a movie and had pizza. We're going to see each other a few more times before I leave, for which I'm glad.


Also, cause I haven't posted it in a while, got hit on by a guy at the beach who wanted to take my picture cause I was so pretty (#27). Another waiter hit on me (#28), and there was a guy(#29) at the symphony last week who hit on me - he wants to make music with me, lol! - and so I must say I've have a wonderful week.

“Courage is saying, 'Maybe what I'm doing isn't working; maybe I should try something else.'”


~Anna Lappe